Ah!

Ah !
If one could understand
Feelings getting out of hand
Out of control out to destroy
To save what can’t be saved
A life without joy

Fake Fake Fake it , is all that is left
Masks everywhere at anytime
Feeling something is a crime
Control control control
I need to keep control
I will lose it all… i’m losing control

Burning … heart beating … too fast
Too much…. Knees trembling… pulse racing
Losing control … losing control …..
losing my mind … need to control…
No… no… no…. Not losing control
Please….

Fighting demons…. Fighting feelings
Need to keep control
Body aching… heart racing … need to keep control ….

I am a warrior
I have control
I will win
And lose it all